The Death Of This Challenge


I got bored of this so I’m choosing what I want to write for my last day; I’m going with “5 songs I love right now”.This is going to be hard because as much as I like music it’s not something I’m an expert in. I just like what I like.

1. Get Over It by Lower Than Atlantis
A band I just found out about while flipping between Scuzz and Kerrang, they are by no means new, just new to me. They are a British band (yas, representing the brits), which you can hear in their accents and is oddly refreshing. The drumming is just so great in it and goes with the lead vocals so well. I have had this song on repeat. If you’re into any kind of alternative rock I recommend you listen to this and I will definitely keep up with LTA if they continue with bangers like this. 

2. Swear by You Me At Six
This was released about a year ago but once again thanks Kerrang, helping me find songs I wouldn’t have heard otherwise. I’m a very casual You Me At Six listener but when I hear things like this it makes me want lay on the floor and put on a YMAS mix, and I swear (ha ha) I will do this. There’s an amazing part of instrumental and then when the lead singer starts singing it’s just so earthy (?), I can’t explain it properly so please just listen to it.

3. Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don’t) by All Time Low
This is going proper old school with this ATL song, which I feel like anyone into pop punk knows. I love everything about this, the parody talk show, the fight scene, and of course the actual song. It’s such a catchy track that you will find yourself singing. The music video is an added bonus of hilarity.

4. Rolling In The Deep by Go Radio
This is the only Go Radio song I know and my favourite version of rolling in the deep. A gem of a song I found while binging all the pop goes punk videos I could find.  There’s not much to say other than saying the lead singer has such a beautiful voice and it suited him so well, there were so many emotions which could be heard throughout.

5. Take A Hint by Victoria Justice and Elizabeth Gillies
Okay, try not to judge me but this is definitely my guilty pleasure track, it’s hella fucking catchy. While rewatching some old Victorious episodes and couldn’t help but sing this. Liz Gillies has such a great voice and I did listen to whatever songs of hers I could find on YouTube and I’m a little bit in love. One great diss track and I’m surprised Nickelodeon did it.

Honourable mentions: the entire Disney soundtrack namely, however I See The Light and I Am Moana. If I ever get married and I don’t play I See The Light then I’ve done something seriously wrong. Concerning I Am Moana, it made me tear up when I watched the movie. Don’t ever question my unhealthy obsession for Disney movies and songs. Phil Collins, Alan Menken, I love these guys.

Please recommend me some songs or comment whatever has been on your playlist this month. 

I’m Fully Over This Challenge 

I’m behind and bored of this challenge so this will be the penultimate day, even though technically I’m on Day 22.

Pet peeves:

  • People who stand on the wrong side of the escalator especially at rush hour (I feel like this is a really British pet peeve) Or stop in the middle of a crowded area.
  • People who lack the concept of personal space. A bonus is when they have bad personal hygiene like body odor or bad breath. 
  • Seeing kids rude to their parents, like I always see kids out with their parents wearing headphones ignoring their parents. I know it is none of my business and it shouldn’t bug me but it does. 
  • Rude people in general and people who bitch behind others back. At least have the balls to say it to their face. Add racist people and hypocrites to this.

    Please comment your peeves too (so I don’t feel like I’m easily annoyed). I’m curious to see what other ones there are.

    October Writing Challenge: Day 21

    This may be the most mundane thing you will read today but here goes. A log of 25/10/2017:

    • ​Woke up to realise my mum had called from the other side of the world 
    • Called her back and groggily told her the time 
    • Finally worked up the effort to roll out of bed 
    • Daily hygiene hijinks 
    • Eyeliner eyeliner eyeliner 
    • Quickly do some cleaning before the parents get back 
    • Do my hair and get changed for work
    • Daily dose of public transport 
    • Work work work
    • Get off and meet my friend for linner (like brunch but between lunch and dinner)
    • Burgers 
    • Crepes 
    • A catchup with a stroll through the park 
    • Continuing the catchup
    • Home time = pajama time 
    • Apply for jobs after I accidentally withdrew a previous application for a job I really wanted. 
    • The apprentice is on! 
    • Bed time I guess? (And by that I mean scroll through Instagram and watch some episodes of a TV show before I fall asleep)

    A Letter To Someone 

    To Mum, 

    Thank you for all you’ve done. I know we both mutually piss each other off. I know sometimes I’m a piece of shit. But thank you for your endless support. For letting me do what I want. Not questioning my life choices. Always being the happiest when something good happens. Thinking I’m actually good as I am. Thinking I’m beautiful.
    I want to let you know how much I admire your strength which is often undermined. Also, to say that you’re so compassionate more than anyone I know. It’s not just a mum thing, only you can be so compassionate and forgiving. It’s not a weakness, never let it be your weakness. It’s another strength.
    I just want to say I love and admire you. I also would like to say that I want you to follow those dreams you’ve had but didn’t persevere. I want you to make it. I don’t want them to give you a reason to not finish. You’ll make it because you are you.
    For all you believed in me, I know you can do it.

    Love from a daughter who doesn’t deserve you.

    October Writing Challenge: Day 19

    There wasn’t much to say for this one.

    ​This isn’t any interview I can be honest.

    My crippling awkwardness
    My ability to always look at the worst things in life
    My continual talent to put myself down
    Sounds like anybody else, right?

    I’ve always been called the black sheep but don’t necessarily know what makes me different. I guess self awareness is overrated. 

    The Constitution of Marriage Simply Confuses Me

    Still a little bit behind with this being the October Writing Challenge: Day 18.

    Disclaimer: Single as fuck over here. 

    Love is meant to be beautiful. Hard yet sweet. The most noble thing you can do for someone is love them.
    Yeah, sounds like bullshit to me too.

    Marriage is quite a common step after love.
    I’ve never had an urge to die alone, but it doesn’t seem completely unlikely to me. I often joke about dying alone, no one would want me. I am not capable of love but the companionship of marriage is not completely horrible.

    To be honest, it’s the expectation to be in a relationship is harder. Like for a young Asian woman there’s an expectation of marriage. I don’t care for it, not now at least, but it’s the continuous nagging.

    I remember once when I was forced to go to a wedding. (I can discuss how much I hate weddings and how I kick up a fuss when I’m
    forced to go but that can be saved for a whole other post.)

    So like always I minded my own business, avoiding others and trying to look busy on the phone. But this older woman began to talk to me. She was nice and friendly. She began casually talking about marriage, which given the setting was not odd. She was quite accepting of my inability to cook just mentioning when marriage arises I will also have a desire to and can get my husband to cook for me. I told her that marriage wasn’t for me and that I’ve got time before I think about all that shit.
    She was even saying that she knew a young girl who got married while still studying and she continued with it because her in-laws were amazing to her. Treated her like a daughter and had a mutual understanding.
    She then began to mention her son who has an attitude like me to marriage. When she said he was 24, I just defended him saying that he’s young and you should let him do what he wants.

    At the time I thought nothing of it. She was saying that he’s an engineer so I joked saying that he can hook me up with a job.

    So when me and my mum went, my mum just goes, “you know she was looking for her son?”
    I replied, “yeah, shes probably looking. Hope she finds someone nice.”
    “I meant she was looking at you.”
    And me being me just goes “nah she was starting a conversation.”
    Wow I am dense.

    Even now my parents keep saying that I should be in some kind of relationship.
    I believe im destined to die alone. There’s nothing wrong with it. It makes life easy. But sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever start to feel lonely but then it would be too late.

    No one deserves me. Not because I have that much confidence in myself but because not even I like myself. I can never give them the love they deserve if I don’t love myself. No one deserves that.

    All we can see is how life slowly unfolds. 

    October Writing Challenge: Day 17

    “Hold fast to dreams 

    For if dreams die 

    Life is like a broken-winged bird 

    That cannot fly.”

    -Langston Hughes 

    It might seem like such a cliche. Don’t give up persevere, blah. But to me, it’s so poetic, immediately when I read this I see the imagery of it. It’s so short yet so descriptive. 

    It’s fairly straight forward, Hughes says that we must hold on to our dreams. If we do not then life is as about futile as bird without flight. A bird who is physically pained trying to do what is meant to do. That is the same as a person, without dreaming there is no meaning. It’s in our nature to dream, we get so down on ourselves without dreams. 

    I guess there are the exceptions similar to a flightless bird. But even as a pessimist, a person will always end up dreaming otherwise we will get nothing done. 

    It’s simple yet effective.

    October Writing Challenge: Day 16

    Happiness is.. 

    The first bite of an extra chocolate cake
    The feeling when someone says they were thinking of you
    Meeting a friend after a long time
    Being with the ones you love
    Buying yourself that new shirt or shoes
    Listening to your favourite song
    Saying your favourite joke

    Happiness is everywhere

    Don’t miss out on the smallest things that make you happy. No matter how small or vain the indulgence is, as nevertheless it’s still happiness. In this life, it isn’t always the only option so when it is, take it.

    Remember there are two sides of the coin and both can never be happiness. 

    October Writing Challenge: Day 15

    In a word: escapism. I like not thinking about what ever has me feeling down. I avoid problems. 

    So when I feel down, I binge watch something. Read a book. Browse online. What makes me feel better is not thinking about things. When I feel like the problem is small enough or I acquire some courage to deal with it then I do but only after I’ve avoided the problem for a long enough time and possibly made it worse. I just like to step back and think about it.

    I would like to just escape from my problems constantly. So escapism is there but it’s not the solution. For a while you can have problems that aren’t yours, you know it doesn’t affect you. There’s no consequences and no risk. It’s good for a while. At the very least. 

    October Writing Challenge: Day 14

    I’m worried I’ll be in a dead end job with incompetent managers. I’m worried I wont be content with what I have. I’m worried I’ll die knowing how it started. 
    As much as I say I don’t miss uni, I miss the memories. I miss avoiding all responsibility. Skipping lectures to eat with your friends. Have no cares even though I should care. Not worrying about what’s next. 

    Even though I only work part time, maybe less than part time. I just wanna blow off work one day and do everything I’m not meant to. Pull a sickie and then meet my friends to chill and grab dessert. 

    I hate that I need to think about what’s next. I hate that I have no clue. I hate there’s a voice inside me that I’ll spend my whole life trying to figure it out. As a result I hate that I might never be happy with this grating voice. 

    I just worry that I’ll never do what I want. 

    I worry I may never find what I want.